Life never turns out like you expect...

If you were to ask me where I would be and what I would be doing in four months, four months ago I would have told you that I would be teaching FACS classes in a small school, living in my own apartment, and driving my own car. Well as you might have guessed I am not doing any of it. I am working at a grocery store making minimum wage, Living with my aunt (for which I am grateful), and driving a car my parents own. Don't get me wrong, I am still happy and upbeat, with my eyes on the future. There are still moments where I think to myself "What about me? When do I get all of those things? When will all of my dreams come true?" But then I remember that Heavenly Father has a plan for me. Its like in a talk given during Women's Conference by Sister Linda S. Reeves "The Lord has not forgotten you!" I know that Heavenly Father hasn't forgotten me and can see the bigger picture and knows what is in store for me, but it is just so hard to wait.

Today in Fast and testimony meeting I was really wanting to share my testimony on this but there is this thing called bravery that I really don't have when it comes to speaking in front of my peers so I didn't do it. But, this girl got up and pretty much said everything that I was going to say. I had the realization that we are all going through trials. They might not all be about the same thing but we are all fighting some kind of battle. This just happens to be my trial right now. A real trial of my faith. I say a trial of my faith because well there is the story. (if you get bored easy you can stop reading here)

This past spring I was an anxious collage graduate ready to conquer the world, get a job and start the next chapter of my life. I prayed about it asking Heavenly Father to send me to the right place and that I would be able to find the right place for me and then I went to work. I started applying for teaching jobs all over the place, watching the job listings on every school district in the state of Utah. Doing everything in my power to get a job. I interviewed all over the state and other states. Three in Salt lake, Tooele, Star Valley, Wendover, St. George, and other places. But to no avail. Every place the same story. I worked so hard and so long just to have everyone call back and say no... Mid way through all of this my prayers changed to what am I doing wrong? Please help me to know what to change. I started practicing for my interviews so that I would know what to say. I didn't give up. I figured that I had worked so hard and so long that not getting a job was not an option. 19 of my 24 years spent on my education were not going to waste. Well I kept trying and applying and then the first day of school came around and I didn't have a teaching job. I was starting to feel forgotten. All of my school friends kept popping up on face book saying "I got a teaching job!". With each one it was like a stab to my heart. What was I doing wrong? I would go to the interview and do so well all of my references checked out and I looked really good on paper. but I still didn't have a job.

Well that is the story up to about two weeks ago. Well at that point in time I had come to the conclusion that the problem was something that was not my fault. Well through the course of some interesting things I have found out that it could in fact be Not my fault. I now have new references awesome new references and letters of recommendations and the future looks BRIGHT! I am so excited for next year! I will get a job for sure.

Just remember everyone out there.

The Lord has not forgotten you! Everything will work out in the end.